I’ve spoken before that The Rogue King Saga is an old creature. It started way back in ’97. Eighteen years later, there’s little left of the original story.
The overarching story is still there. Veng has always been a man facing down a god who seeks to destroy him. But the story within? It grew darker. By bounds rather than inches. I’ve rewritten the entire thing three or four times now and each one gained an additional film of grime.
It’s not all doom and gloom, there’s just more… gloom.
Looking back at the beginning, I don’t think I truly understood my story. But, just by the sheer virtue of continuing to live, thirty-year-old me has more experience than twelve-year-old me…
In those eighteen years, I’ve seen death (more death at any rate), I’ve come close to it twice and considered it once. I’ve experienced pain, both in the physical sense and the emotional. And been so angry that I blacked out and had to be dragged off my victim. I’ve smacked against, and crawled out of, such aching nothingness that sucks at your very soul until you’re numb. I’ve also fallen in love. Created life and saved little furry lives.
They say a writer’s personal experiences colour their stories. And whilst twelve-year-old me knew of certain things, but she didn’t know.
The Rogue King Saga has changed so much, darkened beyond my first notes, that some things at the end no longer fit. Lately, I’ve rewritten more and more of The Vengeful God than I have in a good long while. It’s suffered more chopped chapters and alterations than any other part.
I’m okay with that. The bits that matter survive to live on in another part of the story.
Are there any particular experiences you’ve drawn on in your stories? Done any major alterations to a novel?
2 thoughts on “Chopping Up My Darling… Again”
I don't know if there's any experiences that affected my writing, just more of me growing up and realizing that an easy time doesn't make for an interesting story. Thanmir War has changed a lot since conception. The basics are the same, Derek winds up on another world where he meets MaTisha. But the entire world structure changed, some of the character roles changed (Jebaliah and Cameron in particular), and, like your story, things got darker.
Good thing I like dark stories.
I'm glad you're still working on The Rogue King Saga. I'll be interested to read the revisions. 🙂
I think every writer starts to understand that as they get older.
I've stories that end with the lovers apart or one dying, or with people fleeing their homes. It's strange because I like my stories with happy endings. I must rectify this wrong.
It may be a while before I tackle the additions in The Shadow Prince. I'm hoping to push through DOB, then hit In Pain and Blood for Nanowrimo. The school holidays have sort of thrown several spanners in the works, so we'll see.